Pen.
I looked at it, my inside breaking. Pen. Permanent, staining, forever-concealing pen.
Pen.
The pen to paper was like pen to the walls of my heart. Simple blue strokes of scribbled things along the pristine that was my inside.
"Buck up." I think, "It's nothing personal. It's bugging you so much because you're OCD about things like that. In a month you'll set the "defiled" thing under the bed and forget about it until-"
Until! That's the point. A time will come when it will be found. A time will come when the forgotten will turn to remembered and through the merry memory all I'll know is pen.
Pen.
I scrubbed at my heart, rubbing the flesh raw. This pen, why does it bother me so? And it seems as if this mere happenstance is not the first thrashing of pen to my heart. I've been penning myself long, and the bright, proper, brilliant white walls of my soul are dampened and dim with blue pen.
Pen.
Agh! I've found it, however long it's been scribbled; a month, a week, ten hours... perhaps it was scribbled long long ago and I placed it under the bed to be forgotten, and now, somehow, I've reached under the bed and found pen.
Pen.
Spring had better come, for I'm feeling claustrophobic and depressed again; and as it appears I won't be moving out for college, I have only the seasons to provide my change of scenery.
Only the seasons to hide the pen.
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ReplyDeletei REALLY like this, not exactly sure what it is but it was powerful like a pen :D
ReplyDeleteSo much passion, i do not understand all of it, but i think that is kind of the point... :)
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